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Philosophical Note Viscerally Formulated on the F Train
by Adam Shechter
It is at certain points of intersection between two
seemingly unrelated lives that one looks at the other, and the latter, our
object of scrutiny can do nothing but look away. He must. For all that has
amounted in time preceding this moment has awarded the looker the right of
stare. As if everything that occurred before this temporal junction, no matter
what it be, how great or small, bad or good, the universe between these two sets
of eyes has appointed the first with an absolute confidence of visual inquiry,
and the other no protection whatsoever from laying out his full optic soul,
speechless, swirling,
exposed. Almost under the coercion of cosmic law, the man looked at is forced to
bare the accusation of the looking eyes. After he has been watched, he can
choose to look back. He may muster the total sum of all his hardness and nerve
and jam his eyeballs full of it. But already, the first sensory act of judgment
will have taken place. Our man will have been seen in his guilty nakedness.
Though the question holds, guilty of what? Perhaps no more than being an
individual whose complete set of life acts, counting both internal and external,
temporarily equate moral inferiority just one degree less than the man who
points his eye balls gazing. So the watched man cowers, coils into himself,
almost as if he has just received a mortal blow. Very definitely, to say the
least, threatened with elimination.
Adam Shechter is a poet and writer living in Brooklyn, New York. He is also
the editor of the online arts and culture journal, The Blue Jew Yorker.
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