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When I ride the subways without a book, I like to name strangers. I've
sat across from Genelle, Charlie (a girl), Julian, and Nicole. I've
squeezed my arm between Charlie (a boy) and Alan, while grabbing blindly
for a pole during rush hour. I gave up my seat for a pregnant Sam (a
girl). I gave money to a homeless Sadia, and I avoided making eye
contact with a begging Chuck when he asked for spare change. I play the
name game only when I ride the subway without a book, but then I always
play it.
Naming strangers is a godlike business. With a name, I
create people and their stories, but with total disregard for the facts
of their lives. Once named, the endless parade of anonymous and
emotionless faces swaying in unison to the train's lurches and halts are
coated in a thin veneer of familiarity.
In a West Village bistro, I spotted a woman I had named
"Mercedes" on the train the previous morning. The breast (buxom), the
short curls of hair (black-and-silver), and the lipstick (blood-red)
that sat together in a tight booth were unmistakably that same
"Mercedes" of the Bergen Street platform.
The chance of spotting
a stranger twice in two days in two different boroughs seemed so
improbable that I assumed Mercedes must have been on my tail (never mind
that it was Mercedes who had debarked from the subway two stops before
me, and that it was Mercedes who left the bistro first). In a
double-decker city, where the frantic street-level buzz is mirrored and
multiplied underground, the familiar had finally become more unnerving
than the unknown.
Many strangers, I name after people I know and whom
they resemble. I possess a set of templates. Now I look around the world
and see facsimiles. And like them am I - "Annie" to some, but a girl who
resembles "Jessica," "Sasha," or "Rachel," to more. On the uptown 5
express, I sat across from a man I named "Andy" for his resemblance to
an eponymous college friend, and he probably looked at me and named me
"Sarah" after a girl he worked with at Chili's during high school
summers. The only way to keep up with the daily barrage of new stimuli
is to contextualize it by comparing it to the old. There are far too
many faces to see on the subways, and if we opened our eyes to everyone,
we might see no one at all. To view the subway strangers even as
passing shadows, we see them through comparisons, we name them, we make
them up.
Annie Karni is a freelance writer and a reporter for The Long
Island Jewish World.
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